This time around
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Justin and I were very open to the idea of have two kids close together, so we started trying, and I happened to get pregnant very quickly this time around. It took 14 months of trying with David, so it was such a different experience to learn I was pregnant this time around.
When I found out with David, it was a huge rush of joy and I softly uttered the words, “finally. . .” to myself as I stared at the positive test. It had been a long journey for me, and I was overwhelmingly grateful for that life altering test to be positive.
With this new baby, I remember feeling so tired a day or so before my cycle was supposed to start. I was cranky and exhausted. I had plans to get frozen yogurt with my friend and as I was driving home I thought to myself,” MAN. This fatigue reminds me of my first trimester with David. . .”
And then my mind started to race and I began to back track and count the days between my cycles.
I knew I had to take a test the minute I got home.
I said goodnight to Justin, he was watching some basketball game, and hurried upstairs to take the test.
Sure enough, two pink lines showed up.
“Oh. My. Gosh.” I said, smiling in the bathroom mirror.
“I’m freaking pregnant.” I was excited, that sentence was said with a smile 😉
I got in bed, decided to take another test in the morning, because you are technically supposed to take them in the morning, and texted my friend Kacia.
“You want to hear something crazy?”
“Yes,” she replies.
“I just took a pregnancy test and got two lines. What does that MEAN!?!?”
“OH MY GOSH KATE YOU ARE PREGNANT!”
And we continued to go back and forth as I was still in shock at the reality of the situation, floating around the idea that maybe the test was wrong, or maybe I “over-saturated” it.
Kacia just kept saying,”MMMm yeah okay sure. Yeah you are pregnant. That test is right.”
And I finished with,”I have to go to sleep! This is CRAZY! I’ll take another one tomorrow and text you.”
The next morning I was met with another positive test and I then decided that sure enough, I’m pregnant. It was just a few days before Father’s Day so I decided to wait until that Sunday to tell Justin. It was Wednesday, and I only needed to stay strong until Sunday.
Well, I kept my secret for about 48 hours before spilling the beans. I’m a terrible secret keeper when I have exciting news.
David, Justin, and I were in the nursery after just giving David a bath, and suddenly he rolled over. This was thursday evening, and I had seen David roll over the day before but was too distracted to remember to tell Justin.
So, David rolls over and Justin says,”Kate! He rolled over! Did you see that?”
“Oh, yeah. He does that now.” My monotone, unimpressed reply really threw Justin off.
“Wait, WHAT! He rolls over and you didn’t tell me? You’ve been trying to teach him how to roll over for weeks! I figured you’d have a parade when he finally did it! What in the world is going on with you?”
Earlier that day, Justin had suspected that something was up because he could tell that I wasn’t my normal self. So at this point, I knew I couldn’t continue playing it off like nothing is wrong, so I got up and walked over to the changing table and said, “Well, I guess it’s pregnancy brain and I just forgot.”
“Hey Kate? You have a 6 month old. You can’t claim ‘pregnancy brain’ anymore.”
“Oh yes I can. Because I’m PREGNANT. You got me pregnant!”
“Wait, are you trying to tell me you are pregnant?”
“YES. YES I AM PREGNANT!”
“Are you pregnant?”
“YES. I AM PREGNANT!”
I was laughing during this entire exchange and I saw Justin go through the roller coaster of shock, excitement, and shock again.
We hugged, and looked at David, and sat in silence at the reality that our simple little life was about to be overhauled again in the best way.
The day after I discovered I was pregnant, I looked at David differently. I knew our time as just the two of us during the day together was coming to a close. He is so dang enjoyable these days, and that keeps getting truer and truer as time passes.
I don’t worry about loving the next one the same because I know that I will. I think about how my focus and attention will be different come February, and want to be really sensitive about that for David.
In some ways, having another baby while David is so young will likely temper any jealousy issues, but I do anticipate there will be some adjusting on all ends, including his. And we’ll get through it. People do this all the time.
96% of me is very excited, and the other 4% is a bit nervous, if I’m being totally honest. Two babies is going to be a lot. I’ll need to be more flexible and patient than I’ve ever been in my life. All while sleep deprived in the beginning.
I do really look forward to the day when David and the baby are, let’s say, 3 & 4 and can go outside and both play with Justin when he gets home from work. They’ll always have each other to play with, and that will be nice. Of course, I do not expect they’ll get along swimmingly on a daily basis, but they’ll likely be interested in the same type of thing around the same time, and I can see how that will be fun!
Like I said on Monday, I’m going to savor this time with just David. I bought a baby book and am recording things that I know I’ll forget next year. I’m putting my phone away, resting while he naps so I can have all the energy I need for him, and am trying to make him laugh as much as possible.
Sidenote: He’s still incredibly stingy with his giggles. He’s got smiles for days, but a giggle is still very rare!
I’ll share a bit about this pregnancy on the blog, like I did with David too. And some Wednesdays may include some stuff about the new one too, once there’s more to say about it.
Thanks again, from the bottom of my heart, for your congratulations on Monday. I can’t tell you how deeply I understand what a gift from the Lord this is, and I’m incredibly honored to be able to share the joy with you!