One of the most unusual things that has happened to me in both first trimesters of pregnancy is a rather intense feeling of apathy.
It’s usually directed toward the blog too, and it’s quite frustrating.
I love being creative, and am usually teeming with ideas and things to say, and suddenly the roller coaster of hormones takes over and I suddenly only care about napping and the basic needs to survive.
I was in tears last week talking to Justin about what the heck to do about it. It’s challenging to push through it. I’m in this uncomfortable time of wanting to create something but I can’t seem to put my finger on what. Working in a creative field with a negative amount of creative inspiration leads to nowhere.
And in the midst of feeling dried up creatively, I was suddenly bombarded with the thoughts that everyone else is doing cool things and I’m not. It was this weird feeling of envy. I was envious of others’ time and skills. And I don’t typically struggle with those kinds of feelings.
So I thought about taking a break, and imagined my days without something to work on, and realized –quickly– that I think I would be more bored without something to work on. Despite the fact that I feel very stagnant in life (creatively), I want to continue looking for things to revive my spirit in that aspect.
So I’ll keep pressing on. And rest when I need to, but also work hard at finding something that inspires me again. Patience has been the trait I’ve learned is most essential for motherhood, and that goes for this season as well. This season, and feeling, will pass. I know that it will! I’m just ready for it to go ahead and pass.
Have you gone through a time like this? What do you do? Do you take a break, or do you keep pushing through? I’d love to hear any advice you may have in the comments.
Meanwhile, I’m bored to death with my hair. I’ve been scrolling and scrolling through Pinterest boards looking for something to strike me. There are so many beautiful hair ideas on Pinterest, I thought I’d share my 4 favorite boards.
Mainly directed towards wedding/event, but also includes a mix of beautiful simple styles.
Classic beauties, texture, trends, and wearable hairstyles.
A great mix of tutorials, inspiration, and cool hair.
Think texture, edgy, and color.