**update: Wow, I’m truly humbled by your very sweet and uplifting comments here. Thank you so, so much.
I’m drafting this blog post as if it’s a letter to a friend, because that’s how I feel about so many of you!
I’m coming off of a hard weekend. It was very fun to celebrate the 4th of July with my in-laws in Virginia. Despite the soggy morning and spitting rain, we went to the parade and the boys enjoyed it. Fireworks were canceled that evening, but we had a small box to light off ourselves in the field behind my sister-in-laws house. We thought David would get a kick out of watching them but he was way too occupied with the flashlight he was holding to even care about the spectacular light show put on by my husband and brother-in-law. Just another one of those things that you think your toddler will LOVE only to find out he doesn’t really care at all!
One of my sister’s cats, Otis, died unexpectedly late into the night on the 4th, and it was incredibly sad. I didn’t sleep that night, other than from 4a-5a. My entire family is animal lovers. Between my brother, my parents, my sister, and I there are 8 cats. My siblings grew up with cats and dogs, and I’m certain Justin and I will get a dog one day too. Our pets become a very close part of our families, so Otis’ sudden passing was both shocking and very upsetting. My heart hurt for my sister, as I know the pain of losing an animal, and I was just wishing I didn’t live half a country away from her.
I bought her a plane ticket for this weekend, so she’s coming down for a visit. Luke and David keep us busy busy busy so I’m hoping the activity with them will be a nice distraction from the emptiness she feels at home.
In the spirit of full disclosure, I’ve felt a little zapped of creativity lately. And I also find myself withholding more and more personal thoughts and feelings from the blog as I’m a little weary of hateful/attacking comments. I think it’s okay to be thoughtful and filter some of the things that are put out into the public, but I feel like someone pushed the mute button on me. It’s very unusual, and I’m doing my best to really think hard about “why” I’m feeling this way, versus just trying to push past it as hard as I can.
Blogging is still a completely fulfilling joy for me. I absolutely love it. I love helping you, making you laugh on snapchat, and sharing moments of motherhood on Instagram. It’s an ever-changing platform, so the rules are always changing, but the thing that can never change is the personal connection you feel with a blogger.
I like to draw the connection of blogging and a magazine to explain the difference. Both provide content, educational or just entertainment, but one feels personal (the blog you are reading) versus the other feels non-personal and just a form of media to be consumed (the magazine).
The blog posts I love reading most are the ones where I feel like I’m reading a note or message from a friend, so I want to continue to do that here!
I’ll wrap up by saying thanks. Thanks for being here, thanks for commenting and tweeting and leaving messages on Instagram. It is always great to hear from you!
Send warm thoughts and prayers to my sister this week as she recovers from Otis’ passing–I would deeply appreciate that!