I’ve been terrible about maintaining resolutions over the years. I don’t even try to come up with any anymore. The past few years, though, I’ve picked a word for the year and tried to shape parts of my life around it to improve myself/life in general. In 2015, my word was “flexible”, and last year my word was “focus”. Apparently I’ve started an “f” theme, and now I feel pressure to stick with it.
I’m tossing around words in my head like decisiveness…intentional…balance…thoughtfulness.
The seasons, or just weeks, in my life that I regret the most are the ones when I’m consumed with work, daily motherhood/homemaker tasks, and basically pass Justin in the night. I’m short-tempered with my kids, and tend to spiral into these thought patterns of, “I just need to get through this week and get this deadline met and just clean out every single closet in my house and then my life will feel lighter and better and I’ll be nicer and happier”. And then my load with lighten, I’ll think, “this is how it should be, I’ll be better next stressful time. . .” but I’ll pick up the same habits again.
And to be honest, I’ve never really given much effort to setting up better intentional times for each part of my life, so I can avoid these crazy times. I procrastinate, and then they hit me and knock me over like a huge wave, washing away all the diligence I’ve poured into practicing patience and selflessness with my family.
So, this year, I really want to be thoughtful. I’ve ruined the “f” theme, but that’s okay.
I want to make efforts to create more margin in my weeks so I don’t feel stifled by the list of to do’s!
I want to intentionally set aside time to prepare myself for success. I want to avoid the crazy weeks. I want to be focused on what I’m doing, do it well, complete it in a timely manner, and move on to the next task. I want to prepare more for the following day/week. In the wise words of my friend, I want to “help tomorrow me out” by doing a run through of the first floor, gathering up all the junk and bringing it upstairs.
I want to give meal planning a real and true effort. I’d like to clean out my van more often. I want to be more thoughtful of my purchases, specifically home-related things that end up just making the house feel a bit cluttered. I want to cut back on my sugar intake. I want to read more! I want to get ahold of my e-mail inbox. I want to spend time with each boy individually. And I want to have more date nights with Justin.
I do hope you’ve had a nice start to the year and are feeling refreshed and encouraged by the new beginning. As a monday-lover, I love a fresh start!