The boys are really fun. I say this at every age, but there is just so much to enjoy about these young years and I’m savoring, SAVORING my time at home with them before school starts.
I have a few friends with kids who entered kindergarten recently and they are gone for almost the ENTIRE DAY! I know it’s normal, and I know the kids are usually very ready for that when that age comes, but I can’t wrap my brain around that right now!
But I don’t have to. I have a few years left with them at home!
If you are new around here, it took Justin and I about 14 months to get pregnant with David. It was very hard to wait on the Lord’s timing with that, and I learned a lot about myself and my relationship with God through that season. My pregnancy and delivery via planned c-section were easy, and then adjusting to life with a newborn was challenging! Despite that, by the following Easter when David was just 4 months old, Justin and I were already talking about trying for a second baby. We thought,”we are in a baby stage now, let’s go ahead and add another one to the mix asap!” We also anticipated it taking a long time like it did for David.
As it turns out, we were pregnant a month later. And sweet Luke arrived 14 months after David was born.
It was a lot to manage at first, but it was all I knew. And we all enjoyed life more after Luke’s 2 month colic period when he was a few months old. Man, those were the darkest days of my life. If you are in that season right now, please know you are not alone and you + the baby will get through it!
And today, I have a fresh 3 year old and an almost 2 year old. And while I’d love to have more kids, I don’t feel a strong desire to start trying for that yet. When David was tiny, I felt very capable to care for a second baby. And now that I have 2 little growing boys, I’m feeling what a lot of moms feel when they say they can’t imagine introducing another one into the mix.
I feel like both boys need so much from me, from my full attention to their play doh creations, to getting them apple juice or a pretzel when they’d like a snack.
I worry that if I were to have a baby, I would feel like I didn’t have the capacity to give both David and Luke what they need and are used to getting from me. Does that make sense? I know my capacity will expand, just as it did when I had Luke. And I’ve seen it happen with my friends. And kids are pretty resilient and will get used to a new normal with a bit of time.
Life right now is full to the very very brim. The boys LOVE to wrestle and will play hide and go seek, even though they don’t really know how to play it correctly yet. David will tell me to go hide, and then he will go hide, and so I’ll have to call out to him to ask him what I’m supposed to do! Or he’ll tell Luke where to hide, and direct him to that exact spot, and then walk away. It’s adorable.
Luke is 100% in love with footballs, soccer balls and basketballs. The kid cannot get enough sports balls. And David is still majorly into trucks and tractors. They are playing less with toys and more with their imaginations in forts, and climbing mountains of pillows. They laugh and play together so well, it makes my heart melt.
David is testing some limits, but that is too be expected as a 3 year old. It’s much more of a challenge than I thought, though, to determine how to correct bad behavior. He’s dropped his nap, so we are trying to enforce a quiet time/room time and that’s taking a little getting used to for all of us!
We stay pretty busy during the week, but there is also an added layer of occasional quiet for me because the boys will play pretty well together in the playroom which allows me more time to clean up the kitchen, or search for new recipes on the computer. I love that they are getting older, and becoming more and more fun to play with, and I know I’ll miss them terribly whenever they are in school.
Anyway, it’s been so long since I’ve updated about them here, I thought I’d do that today! You can see a bit more of them over on Snapchat (I’m K8_smallthings) if you’d like to follow along!
More of my favorite posts about motherhood here.